Random Word Story # 32~ Moving Along to Nowhere

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Here is my story:

There was something dark about the store clerk at the new Dollar General. She stood with rounded shoulders, and a defeated look in her eyes, as I approached the counter to check out. I would have guessed that she was much older, if we weren’t face to face. She was not much beyond the age of twenty, as I would learn, yet had the demeanor of a lone surviving combatant from a long lost battle.

Her southern drawl set her apart even further.

“You aren’t from around here, young lady.” I said.

“No ma’am. I’m from Alabama. Been he’ ah for two weeks, or so. I’m hopin’ to bring my kids he’ah soon.”

“My… you have children? You’re just a young thing.”

“I was twenty last month and I’ve got three baby boys back home with my momma. Their daddies were scumbags and I cum up here and met the love of my life for sure!”

Her grin was bright and happy but the sadness in her eyes did not fade. She nervously chewed on the side of her tongue as we spoke. It occurred to me that she may have been a beautiful child, once upon a time. Her face was heart-shaped and she had large blue eyes but her hair, seemed as though it was as stressed as her posture, with frizzy ends on a carelessly gathered ponytail.

I saw her as a defector. She’d left her children, after all, while pursuing what I could only imagine was an habitual trail of scumbags. Without having to ask, she went on…

“Met James on the internet. He’s going to bring my boys up soon and we’re buyin’ a house too.” She grinned as her eyes looked through me to an imagined “happy place”.

“That is fantastic! A new beginning, in a new place. I’m happy for you.”

Then I noticed  scars in both of her thin eyebrows and one that ran along her chin too. As she packed my items, her hands trembled.

My, too quickly made judgement, softened as I asked myself, “Why  do so many young ladies have to live such hard lives?”. I felt the urge to hug her and to tell her that things would get better…that she would find her happy ending, but I didn’t believe the latter. Not everyone gets a square deal. Her children would probably have similar fates without the foundation of roots and family and I felt helpless, very helpless to remedy her troubles. In fact I, shamefully, wanted to get away from her as quickly as I could, as if hard luck and ignorance were somehow catchy.

She continued, “James will be picking me up soon and we’re gonna call my kids to tell them about our house. We ain’t been approved yet but we’re hopin’ to hear this week. That ‘ill be ten dollars and seventy cents ma’am.”

“Thank-you. Best wishes to you and James.”

That night, I said several prayers for her family. I held on to a glimmer of hope for her sons, realizing that they might have a slightly better chance to find stability, simply by not being  “beautiful” daughters.

It has, now, been six months … and I have not seen her at the Dollar General again…

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My other Random Word Stories were complete fiction. Sadly, this one, came from a true encounter that I had last Fall.

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Flashbacks…

Okay, I have never used hallucinogens. That made clear, do you have flashback moments? I do.

These are not the kind inspired by songs or aromas. They are very insignificant. One moment of time from a life filled with gazillions of moments.

I have one that came to mind as I started to type…

My eyes are down at my creative writing piece as I listen to someone read, their piece, to my 12th grade class. It must have been a gloomy day because the fluorescent lights seem extra bright on my “sight” perimeter. That’s it. Why that moment? I know that same “vision” has visited me before. So many moments and my mind chose to file that one. I wonder why?

I woke up with a flashback this morning. I cannot even recall it now, but it was equally insignificant, yet familiar. I’m certain, I had visited it before.

If I actively try to conjure these images, they are elusive. Instead, my library of memories jumps in. The stuff I’ve remembered because it has a clear meaning to me.

Well, I’m going to keep tract of these puzzles. I’ve really never given them any notice before.

As for the creative writing flashback, I’m sure it was tucked into my “writing” cloud and chose to pop in on this post.

Have a nice day 🙂 and please don’t send the men in white coats!